Miscarriage: understanding your loss from a Catholic perspective … http://www.freewebs.com/janeparkinson/index.htm
God, We remember all babies who have died as a result of miscarriage. We remember all mothers and fathers whose hearts are aching and arms empty, who never had a chance to love or hold their babies. We ask God’s healing to fill the void and emptiness that has been left. Amen
The Apostolate of Hannah's Tears 
Please pray for me and my husband. It will be a week tomorrow since we found out I had a miscarriage. Although our baby was only 5-6 weeks developed, since the moment we found out I was pregnant, we spoke and prayed with it, spoke of all the firsts with it and were eagerly awaiting our first ultrasound to hear it’s heart beat. Our pain is especially deep because we got married later in life. I am presently 40, he is 42. We were going to begin different tests to see if there were any reasons why we were not able to get pregnant after trying for a year and a half. It was one week prior to my first blood test that I found out I was pregnant. The joy we felt, for instead of going for blood work to see the level of my progesterone/estrogen hormones we were going to see the level of my pregnacy hormone. I truly believed that God was blessing us with this baby as an answer to our prayers and felt strongly that it would grow strong and to full term. How shocked and saddened I was when the first signs that something was not right were felt. I know all the postive words and sayings that I feel in prayer God is saying to me and I’ve even been told by other people, ie.”There’s a little Green in heaven now for all eternity cheering you on”, or “you still got to hold life in your womb for 5-6wks. What a gift!”, “You’re still a mom and dad forever now.”. Sometimes that is comforting but most times I’m still just in shock that something that started out so wonderful and exciting and hopeful could end so horribly. The whole process of even shedding the baby out of your system which inevitably ends up being continously flushed down the toilet only adds salt to the already wide open wound. I know time will continue to heal this pain but right now I feel so heavy and lost and confused. I am left wondering, “Why do we pray? What is the purpose of our prayers if God’s plan in the end wins out anyways. I had close family and friends praying specifically for the health of the baby and that it would come to full term. Did they not pray hard enough or did God just have other plans?? Clearly, you can see I need prayers. My husband and I are going to continue with our previous tests and I will have a surgery next week that will be for endometriosis and to check my tubes for any blockages. I so want to try again after a couple of months but know this next postive pregnancy test will be tainted with hesitancy and fear rather than completely overwhelming, light hearted joy! I will miss that…
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