Dearest Friends,

As we enter into the beauty of spring time, this is probably one of the hardest seasons besides holidays when our desires for new life fill our hearts. Please know that this desire for life is something very holy and God would not give this to you if it wasn’t in His will, but I do feel what He gives us we must give back to Him. So, when you find yourself before the Lord in front of the tabernacle, adoration or at Holy Mass during the consecration, lift your mind to the Lord in that instance and give Him your desires for life. Just as St. Hannah did in the Old Testament, she went to the Temple and lifted all of her desires to God and went on her way. Remember hearing when you were small that if you love something and let it go it will come back to you? This is what I’m trying to say about the desires of our heart, we must learn to release them into God’s Hands and let them go as an act of our will.

I remember loosing my second child in this season of Spring, these memories are never easy. What I find in my heart each day I get up to face the life I have been given… I have learned to give everything back to the Lord. In my heart I know my baby once conceived is in the Father’s presence in Heaven. My child is rejoicing in the goodness of God, who is the author of all life and the life giving breath of us all good and bad alike. I place my trust in the Lord who made Heaven and Earth, who is and knows all. With Our Holy Father visiting the United States, I have felt a new hope in my heart to trust, that God is with us and that we are not alone in our sufferings. I was once asked how do you get past the suffering when it comes to fertility challenges…what do I do? That is a good question, I have chosen, by the act of my own will to lift my heart to the Lord with all my mind and with all my strength. We have been given free will and the Lord knows all so I give Him my all. He has endured much suffering, so I give Him all of my suffering. Do I think this is easy? NO, this is never easy, this is something that I have chosen to do, to rejoice in the moment God is giving me today. I have decided not to let things bring me down, I have decided to live and take care of who I am today. I pray that all of you will also, as my mother once told me, “Choose today as if it was the first day of the rest of your life!”, may we all make that choice today.

May Our Dear Mother Mary, Queen of Heaven, wrap you all in Her Mantle of Hope and Trust that you may find peace today in all of your trials and that they may turn into the Joy that you need to get through this NEW DAY.

May God bless and keep you and don’t forget that the acts of faith, hope and love are all acts of our will and a choice. If you are suffering try to reach out to someone else who is also suffering, the Lord brings so much grace in this act of self giving.

Peace and Blessings,
Hannah’s Tears